what to say...

I honestly don't know exactly what to write. There is so much I could say, but not enough words to really describe what it is I wish I could explain.



How many of you have been feeling down lately? Like a depression that is much thicker than anything you have experienced before. It seems to creep up, and sometimes we don't notice its there until a lot of time has passed and we let our feelings take over our senses.



I feel this way, and to be honest I do not know how I got here, and what to do to change it. I love the people I am surrounded by, I love my family, I have nothing to complain about, and yet all I want to do is sleep, cry, and complain. I know this may seem as a personal note to just put out here, but I am being honest. I am stuck in a rut and I cannot seem to make it to the surface.



Many close friends and relatives have been suggesting scripture, and such to me, and I learning to take their advice, and seek The One who knows the beginning and end way before I go through it.



I was reading in Ecclesiastes today and over and over again it states how everything is meaningless under the sun. If it is so meaningless, than why are we all so dependent? I hate money, i hate things, I hate fakeness, I hate a lot of things that I do, and say because I am human.



I want to be with my God in Heaven, this life is just a quick episode in the big scheme of things, soon enough we shall be with our King, I just can't wait!

I am sure there are many things we are all going to accomplish and do for Him before we are brought home for good, I just wish I could see Him face to face!



This is all random thoughts, but maybe someone may find it interesting, (or see that I may be going crazy)



God bless.

Halie