what to say...

I honestly don't know exactly what to write. There is so much I could say, but not enough words to really describe what it is I wish I could explain.



How many of you have been feeling down lately? Like a depression that is much thicker than anything you have experienced before. It seems to creep up, and sometimes we don't notice its there until a lot of time has passed and we let our feelings take over our senses.



I feel this way, and to be honest I do not know how I got here, and what to do to change it. I love the people I am surrounded by, I love my family, I have nothing to complain about, and yet all I want to do is sleep, cry, and complain. I know this may seem as a personal note to just put out here, but I am being honest. I am stuck in a rut and I cannot seem to make it to the surface.



Many close friends and relatives have been suggesting scripture, and such to me, and I learning to take their advice, and seek The One who knows the beginning and end way before I go through it.



I was reading in Ecclesiastes today and over and over again it states how everything is meaningless under the sun. If it is so meaningless, than why are we all so dependent? I hate money, i hate things, I hate fakeness, I hate a lot of things that I do, and say because I am human.



I want to be with my God in Heaven, this life is just a quick episode in the big scheme of things, soon enough we shall be with our King, I just can't wait!

I am sure there are many things we are all going to accomplish and do for Him before we are brought home for good, I just wish I could see Him face to face!



This is all random thoughts, but maybe someone may find it interesting, (or see that I may be going crazy)



God bless.

Halie

Come Away

Come Away...
by Halie Walker on Friday, January 21, 2011 at 11:46am

Follow Me. I want you. I am jealous for your attention.



Come away with me, and I will give you rest.



I have a story to write for you.



I have a destiny for you.



It's gonna be everything you ever wanted if you just trust me.



I have known you before you knew me.



I saw you catch your first breath. I gave you your life.



I have an awesome path for you to follow.



Just trust me.



Come away with me and find hope.



I am The Only One who can give you fulfillment.



I have written your future.



It's going to get better.



Just trust me.



Come away with me.



Live forever.

Being home...

Well, I have been home for 4 weeks now, and WOW! is all I have to say!

I can't believe the crazy bumps that I have gone through just being home... but I am really starting to understand God's timing, and planning.

I have always wanted to follow God, and serve him, but I let things get in the way more often than not, and it is something that I will probably deal with until I die. I let things or people be my everything, my identity, my reason to smile, my reason to wake up,and what makes Halie, Halie. It is a huge struggle for me to balance life and what the world thinks it should look like, and God, and what He wants and calls me to do. Sometimes I don't want to hear His voice, because I am too comfortable, and too lazy to make the necessary changes. Until that day when He does it for me, and I am forced to deal with it, and make those changes.

You see, before I left I was happy with everything. I was looking forward to a great trip, I had great friends and family supporting me, I had future plans for college, and what that was going to look like, I wanted what everyone wants. A steady job, a husband with 3 little kids, ministry, and experiences through teavelling. I wanted what the world sees as normal and the "american dream". Part of me still wants those things.

I don't think there is anything wrong with wanting those things, but the question to ask is why?

For me, it was making my life look appealing, and perfect, where I could have the world, and God. I wanted to be everything. But that was my problem, still is my problem. I have to realize that The Lord says we cannot have the world and him. We are even supposed to forsake our brother and sister for the cause of Christ. I did not really understand that until I went to China.

While I was there I was surrounded with people who love God in a different way that I do. See, sometimes I love Him as much as I can, but still cling to the world and what it promises. I cling to what they will accept from a "christian" instead of clinging to the Bible, and forsaking the world and its lies, and compromises.

The sisters and brothers i met while in China made God their everything... Literally. They depended on Him for money, food, shelter, EVERYTHING. They were willing to forsake all others to be closer to their Heavenly father.

Why can't I be like that? I am too COMFORTABLE... I really hate having to change things in my life that seem like they are just normal hings, but it isn't normal for people in other countries, or even in our own country to be living on the streets, or in shacks, with barely any food, while I have the choice to have really any kind of food I want with just a drive away.

I am not saying that we all need to live in shacks to really know God, or maybe that is what I am saying, but I just want us to realize how incredibly blessed we are. I know on Christmas I wasn't thanking God for letting me get this thing I wanted, or that thing that was way too expensive, I was really thankful for my family, and getting to be with them on Christmas when I had been away from them for so long.

Even in church, on Christmas services, we give money, and I wonder where it goes? Do we help the poor and needy? Do we feed the widow and care for the orphan? Do we really forsake the world, so we can have GOD?

We should never ask "how much of the world can i look like and still get away with going to heaven?" it should be "how much am i willing to let go of this world in order to follow and love God and serve Him with everything I have?"

I am learning a lot... Just thought I would share.

Be blessed.

"For this world may seem amazing, but God is ALMIGHTY"

Living the LIFE of worship

John 4:24
"God is spirit, and his worshipers must worship in spirit and in truth."

WORSHIP - "It is the response of the human spirit to a manifestation of the glory of God."

The word "worship" comes from an old English word meaning "worthship".
To worship God is to express His worth.

When was the last time that we rejoiced in giving all of ourselves to God? What I mean is, do we submit every part of us, to Him, as an act of worship? Worship is not just singing or playing an instrument. It is how we live. We must honor God with every aspect of our lives. Because we have been called to live a lifestyle of excellence. When we do this, we can be content with knowing that God is always there.

Why Should Worship Of God Be A Priority In
Our Lives?

1) It is a priority in Scripture.
God mentioned it many times in His word, and therefore we should follow this example, as we make it top priority in our lives.In Genesis we see Adam fall when he failed to worship God. We cannot ever believe that we know more than God. We will fail to see the true meaning of our creation, and our purpose. We all have a purpose, and out future really does not belong to us, God guides it, and we obey.

2)Jesus made it priority
Mark 12:30 "Love The Lord your God, with all your heart, soul, mind, and strength."
To worship, we must give all of our heart, body, soul, and mind. This does not mean we must run around and scream His name everywhere we go, for that is foolishness, but we must not be afraid to let the holy spirit guide us in our honoring of the Most High God.

Through prayer and reverence Jesus made His worship a priority, even on His last day. He went and bowed down to his father and prayed mercy on the people, and for strength in what He knew He had to do. To me, this is beautiful, on His dying day, he fell down in worship, and intense prayer before God, begging for His help and strength, without arrogance or selfishness. It says in scripture that Jesus prayed so deeply that His tears were blood. What about us? I have never been so devoted that i started to cry blood! When we think about this we might think of it as too radical, and not possible for us as mere human beings, JESUS WAS HUMAN! He encountered all kinds of sins, and still resisted.

I Corinthians 14:25 "The secrets of his heart are disclosed, and so, falling on his face, he will worship God and declare that God is really among you."
I want to see this generation of radical believers of the power of God, FACEDOWN, in complete surrender, as top PRIORITY, and in true Reverence.


3)It is what The Father is looking for, and desires from us, as His perfect Creation.
John 4:21 - 24 - " But the hour comes, and now is, when the true worshipers shall
worship the Father in spirit and truth: for the Father seeks such to worship Him.
God is Spirit: and they that worship Him must worship in spirit and in truth."

To worship God, we must be intentional.
Expression of our deepest thoughts should be brought up to Him as our offering of praise.We must bring our first-fruits, and nothing less than our best.



KEY REASON TO WORSHIP: He created us, and gave us life, therefore He deserves our praise.

A key principle in worshiping is learning about God, and never stopping.
There is always more to know, more to see, and more to come.
The more we know God, the closer we will get to Him, and the deeper our reverence and worship will be for Him.

To live a life of worship we must be Thankful for our life.
*We must strive for nothing less than excellence.
*We must strive to live a holy and sanctified life.
*We must have a repentant and humble heart.
*We must be obedient to what The Lord has in store for us.
*We must be lovers of God's Word, and have a passion for His presence.
*We must have true faith in Our God.

Worship will draw us closer together, not only to The Lord, but to each other.
The thought that, if we all truly devoted ourselves to a life of worship, we could change our city, is so amazing. We could bring more and more people to eternity, and we could leave a legacy for generations to come. Our relationship with God will be built on a stronger foundation than we ever could have imagined, and our lives will never be the same.
Worship is an offering to God from His children. We have all been adopted by God and we need to start living like it! Ephesians 1:5 says, "In Love He predestined us for adoption as sons through Jesus Christ according to the purpose of His will."




(inspired by the rodbest blog)

To Live in Love....

There is this crazy thing called love. It’s a feeling of affection and adoration between two or more people. But what about this other love? There is a supernatural love that can never be torn, between us and God. He is our first love, and we seem to be more concerned with finding that one special person who will fill that void that one person who will make us feel complete. There is nothing wrong with being in love and finding the person that you will spend the rest of your life with, but we cannot forget about our maker and sustainer who claimed us and called us His bride. We have grown up in a society that has this idea of unreserved and second-hand love. We all fall victim to it. We think that it is normal for dating couples to live together and have kids before they make a covenant of marriage with each other and God. But, it makes sense; we live in a godless world.

The people in our world don’t care about a “piece of paper stating I am married”. That’s just it—it’s not just a piece of paper, it’s a covenant. It breaks my heart to see young adults falling into this trap, making them feel more and more worthy if they “prove” their love to each other, just to keep him or her around. The Bible says “Love is patient.” What if we all were patient and waited for the one that has been chosen by God. This blows my mind to think about; The Triune Nature of God, as father, son, and spirit. We have been given by God to God as a love offering. We need to live like this! Live like we are heirs to the throne of the Most High GOD. We are all children of royalty, and that makes us all important. So love yourself, because God has made us to be perfect the way we are.

...Teach me your paths...

Oh Lord, You are Beautiful, Your face is all I see...

"To you, O Lord, I lift up my soul. O my God, in you I trust; Let me not be put to shame; let not my enemies exult over me. Indeed, none who wait for you shall be put to shame; they shall be ashamed who are wantonly treacherous. Make me to know your ways, O Lord; Teach me your paths. Lead me in your truth and teach me, for you are the God of my salvation; for you I wait all day long."
~Psalm 25:1-5

God wants to lead this generation as his leaders of LOVE, HOPE (because He is our only hope)- PEACE, and in HONOR (we can start with honoring our father and mother.)
He wants us to Love unconditionally, that means sacrifice. To love wholeheartedly, and sufficiently. I want to see my unbelieving friends come to the Lord as their source. I want to see the mountains moved, the whole earth shake, and the peace that surpasses all understanding move through us. God, let us see nations healed, let the blind see, the deaf hear, the dead live again, and the broken made whole. Brothers and Sisters, we have The ONLY Power able to do all these things, and we walk around hopeless, and wonder why we cannot get closer to God. My family, We are called to live according to His word, to live by faith and not by sight, and to become revivalists in this world that is coming to an end. Our God has opened eyes to the things that are unseen, the side of the world that a lot of us ignore. We have been granted the Armor of God, and we need to use it! There is a battle with the devil, and we are the Lord's army, so we must fight! God tells us that with Him all things are possible, therefore we should not live in fear of discomfort, because when Satan recognizes you, it means you are going up against him, and he knows God is watching out for you, and protecting you. Do not let satan intimidate you! Suffering is to be expected when you are making the devil know that you aren't giving up! Therefore, i urge you brothers, and sisters, Love God with all you are, and do whatever it is that He calls you too. Pray that God will show you what it is that He needs you to do. Because, Life is not about us.

This weekend at Jesus Culture, I encountered God in a way i had never encountered Him before. I cried, I laughed, I jumped, I danced, and I prayed, A LOT. There was so much to pray for, and there still is! We live in a society that is OK with perversion, is OK with lying, and cheating, we seem to care about the next best material thing, versus the next best thing The Lord has for us. We need to pray for passion for this generation. The whole city of Reno can be saved. It is possible. I find myself looking at it sometimes, and thinking it's impossible because of all the sin we encounter and encourage here, but God is bigger than us! He is bigger than the industries that sell sex, drugs, and alcohol.
He is bigger than our deepest darkest secrets, and He sees the depths of our hearts. Nothing will hold Him back from having all of His children know Him.
I encourage you to have a secret place that only you and God can go, and get to know Him! You will start to encounter Him in a different way! He will sit with you, talk to you, and love on you!
It's time for us to know what God is doing, as He awakens His church, it will be our job to awaken our city! Jesus is the encounter we all need! and have been waiting for, and now that we have it, we must spread it! When the devil knows who you are, it means you are well equipped and are fighting for God! that is an amazing feeling! to know that you are right! Gosh, God is just so good!
The speaker this weekend made a point that totally hit me in the face. He said that in order to help the church we must teach them how to suffer. Wow! suffer? are we willing to do that?
Wherever we go, we must EXPECT revival. There is no way around it, God is here, NOW.

I love you all, family, and i am so blessed to have each one of you in my life. May God give you grace and peace, and love, to love others as He loves, and to see this world glorify Him.

Excited to live Forever and Ever by Jesus' blood,
Halie

"Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil. For you are with me." Psalm 23:4a

A journey through Corinthians

1 Corinthians 1

Vs. 4-9 "I give thanks to my God always for you because of the grace of God that was given you in Christ Jesus, that in every way you were enriched in him in all speech and all knowledge— even as the testimony about Christ was confirmed among you— so that you are not lacking in any spiritual gift, as you wait for the revealing of our Lord Jesus Christ, who will sustain you to the end, guiltless in the day of our Lord Jesus Christ. God is faithful, by whom you were called into the fellowship of his Son, Jesus Christ our Lord."

<sup>This passage totally hit me in the face and God said... "Halie, let's see where in this story you fit in." ouch! I know what i have done wrong and God is totally convicting me and challenging me on what to fix, because in the end we are not just "safe" to do whatever we want, we are called to love unconditionally, forgive infinitely, and bring Glory, honor, power, and praise to our Savior.

1 Corinthians 2 (Verses 1-10)</sup>
"And I, when I came to you, brothers, did not come proclaiming to you the testimony of God with lofty speech or wisdom. For I decided to know nothing among you except Jesus Christ and him crucified. And I was with you in weakness and in fear and much trembling, and my speech and my message were not in plausible words of wisdom, but in demonstration of the Spirit and of power, that your faith might not rest in the wisdom of men but in the power of God.
Yet among the mature we do impart wisdom, although it is not a wisdom of this age or of the rulers of this age, who are doomed to pass away. But we impart a secret and hidden wisdom of God, which God decreed before the ages for our glory. None of the rulers of this age understood this, for if they had, they would not have crucified the Lord of glory. But, as it is written,
"What no eye has seen, nor ear heard,
nor the heart of man imagined,
what God has prepared for those who love him"— these things God has revealed to us through the Spirit. For the Spirit searches everything, even the depths of God."

Wouldn't it be amazing if we, as humans, had the wisdom and knowledge of God? it would cause so much chaos in the world, that we would have no need of a God who loves us and takes care of us, It's a scary thought. I remember at one point in my life, these past few years, I have asked God to give me His eyes, so that I may see the beauty in His creation, and gain the utmost respect for those who are different than I. god did not just hand it over though. He gave me opportunities to love, and show His love. The spirit of revival in our world is becoming more and more common, so we MUST all LOVE, love, LOVE. The body is broken and the pain is immeasurable, but there is ONE thing that can make it all whole again! We have that gift, we know His name, and we must start it! We cannot afford to sit around and wait for "that girl" to say hello to the unlovely in our schools, work, or churches, we cannot wait around for "him" to donate his time, we must do it! God told us to "Go into the world, and preach the gospel to every creature" and to "baptize them in the name of the Father, the Son, and the Holy Spirit." What do we have to lose? friends? family? a job? our significant other? life? God told us the greatest act of love is to lay down our lives for the sake of our friend, but it is hard. And i know this, but what if we all started living the way HE intended? We just might see the earth shake! the mountains moved! the high rulers bowing to THE TRUE VICTORIOUS RULER, and every knee bow before our King. Maybe, just maybe, instead of walking past the homeless guy on the streets, we stop and talk to him, find out his story, pray for him, hand him a couple of dollars, and invite him to church, how hard could that possibly be? I urge you, brothers, and sisters, Love the unlovely, for Jesus loved us.