Life is astounding

Life is crazy. On eminute everything is fine, ans the next it all comes crashing down. Sometimes i put on this face and make people thnk tha ti have it all together, but guess what, i do not. I fall under the impression that it's ok, because "at least i am not as bad as her, or at least I don't do that" but why? Why am i so prideful and think that i am better, when,in reality, i am worse for thinking that about them. Just one thought comes to mind about this. Hypocrisy. I am called, we are ALL called, to live above reproach, live above what the world thinks is acceptable and "normal". I say i believe in Jesus, and that I love Him, but loving Jesus means giving everything i have for HIM. I come to you all, my friends and family, and confess that I screw up, and i sin. I need forgiveness. I don't want to hurt the people around me, and especially i don't want to let my GOD down. I am So sorry.. I am sorry if i have let you down, or made things difficulkt for you. Because the fact is, i never want to hurt you. It's sad that a lot of times i go to church, and listen to the pastor talk, take communion, and praise Jesus through worship in song, but my life does not scream I LOVE JESUS! I need God's help. I may not now everything, but i do know that I am nothing without my Jesus. I constantly fail, and HE has been elling me to take a look at my life and realize when i am wrong, and realize that i fail, and i do not know as much as i think i do. Because, i know nothing. God's really been humbling my heart and telling me when i am wrong. I feel like i have been blowing it constantly, but God gives us grace daily, i just have to allow Him in.